Night Ramble

Sometimes I ramble on at night right before I go to bed. The only editing I did on this was spellcheck so the punctuation and improper capitalization's are either for effect or my laziness.

My nose is to floor
Fuel running low
Got this blessing in my life
but don't know what it's heading towards
simple times, simple moments
that take my breath away
A life undeserved
but someone was willing to pay

Forehead hitting desk straight ahead
eyes closing thinking of what is around the bend
breathing in, breathing out
heart beating, pounding, thumping
nostrils flaring, eyes are glazing
at the sound of this rhyme
or the fact that I'm out of time

lamp pointing up
right towards the sky
light beams fading the higher you go
I look up and ask why
Please meet me somewhere down the road
some place where comfort surrounds
where love is free and honest
where a blanket is not far from reach
where sunsets are pretty
and the milky way shines
where honesty breeds integrity
and every moment
takes your breath away

Cant look back and see what is there
disgust and anguish of past mistakes
but laughs and memories from old times
learning from experience
and experiences from learning
rambling now words fall short from my mind
but still something there, whispering something kind
a soft voice, like the wind of the sea
yet a powerful voice, like the guard of the night

A ramble in the night.

The Great Adventure

I was at the doctors office awhile back. I like my doctor. He's cares not only for your physical well-being but also your mental well-being. The majority of his conversation to you isn't about how to eat better or exercise regularly but rather it is about how your parents love you no matter what and no matter what you do to not be afraid to call them. He tells you not to waste such glorious opportunities you have at this great time in life.

I told him a little bit about my first year at college and how I transferred back home from Baylor to Bethel, or the BU switch. He said what everyone else says,"Good for you, Bethel is a great school." He went back to his time at college and how it's ok not to be sure about things. How it is ok to switch and go to a place where you are more comfortable.

The thing that got to me was when he said, "It's part of the adventure that you went down there, and it's part of the adventure that you came back."

Adventure. I never have thought of life as an adventure but after thinking about it for awhile it is a true thing. That's why everyones' story is unique and our your life story is not boring.

I could never write about what is going to happen in my life. The adventure holds things around the corner and places yet to be visited. Experiences that have yet to be uncovered. Uncharted grounds will be explored and conquered. Tastes yet to be found. Love will be found, lost, destroyed, crushed, lifted, and embraced. Tears will fall like waterfalls and friends will be there in support like the roots of a tree.

I don't think God intended life to be a perfectly planned out calendar. I think He meant to put in those little surprises, those little bumps in the road. Yet another little thing to put into my every day realizations that God is present. Turn over stones, unlock hidden places, and explore every nook and cranny of life. God put us on this amazing playground where the adventure can take place. We're all in amazing moments in this adventure called life, go explore it.

How to be an Artist

I found this poster at a doctors office and I liked it. So here it is:

Stay loose. learn to watch snails.
plant impossible gardens. invite
someone dangerous to tea. make
little signs that say Yes! and post
them all over your house. Make friends
with freedom & uncertainty. look forward
to dreams. cry during movies. swing
as high as you can on a swingset
by moonlight. cultivate moods. refuse
to "be responsible." do it for love.
take lots of naps. give money away.
do it now. the money will follow.
believe in magic. laugh a lot.
celebrate every gorgeous moment.
take moonbaths. have wild
imaginings, transformative dreams,
and perfect calm. draw on the walls.
read everyday. imagine yourself
magic. giggle with children. listen
to old people. open up. dive in. be free.
bless yourself. drive away fear.
play with everything. entertain
your inner child. you are innocent.
build a fort with blankets. get wet.
hug trees.
Write love letters.

The Greatest Commandment

Writing this one in the car. Sitting in my seat watching lightning run throughout the clouds and little raindrops fall onto the windshield. Lifehouse playing on the radio. Song says "I'll do whatever it takes, to turn this around." 

I wonder how much I would do for someone or for something.  How far would I go in order to get someone I want. Follow them to the end of the earth? Call just to hear their voice? Talk to them and always say the ultimate Tom Cruise line,"You complete me." 

Someone that is my other half. Holding on to the other half of my heart waiting for that other piece to complete the puzzle. Like the Kanye song, maybe we're all heartless. A solo is inspiring but a duet brings hope and change. 

Strong and compassionate are words that seem totally different but after some time seem like a perfect match.  I would like to be strong and compassionate.

Strength helps with confidence in my opinion. Something that makes you a little bolder in things you do. It makes you surprise yourself at times. I imagine strength as standing up for what is right, being a leader, a follower, and lifting heavy things over your head and then chest bumping your bro while screaming deeply.

Compassion is something that I feel shows justice, love, and sincerity.  It's loving your neighbor as yourself, the greatest commandment, in action. Compassion, to me, is hugging someone that feels down, helping someone stuck on the side of the road, and crying while watching Marley and Me.

The greatest commandment includes a combination of compassion and strength, I think would be buying food for the homeless, talking with the socially outcast, and maybe crying after you chest bump your buddy.